i haven’t posted in a while-
but reading through my tumblr gave me a sense of warmth.
some of the posts are from just a year ago, and yet i feel like such a different person it’s hard to comprehend. i seemed to be filled with so much more hope and everyday optimism- i had wit and a genuine interest in observing the world.
i want to get that back.
it made me so happy to see pictures of my “old”(?) life- going places with family and friends, a comfortable environment. i don’t feel like i have that in Berkeley yet.
coming back to the ocean always makes me feel at home. so much of my life has taken place - fallen apart, come together, felt limitless - along the shore. even looking from a few miles away makes me feel distant. it was so nice to be home.
JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHY DID I NOT KNOW ABOUT THIS CAT BEFORE
HER NAME IS TAMA
AND SHE’S THE STATIONMASTER AT A TRAIN STATION IN JAPAN
SHE GREETS ALL THE PASSENGERS
AND SHE HAS HER OWN OFFICE
AND SHE’S PAID IN CAT FOOD
AND SHE IS A FUCKING EXECUTIVE OF A FUCKING RAILROAD STATION
AND LOOK AT HER
the trains are decorated with cartoon versions of her since she’s their mascot as well
MAN YOU GOTTA TALK ABOUT THE TRAIN MORE TOO THOUGH!!
FOR ONE THERES A LITTLE LIBRARY INSIDE WITH CHILDREN’S BOOKS!!
AND TAMA THEMED COUCHES AND BACKBOARDS!!!
AND THE FRONT HAS WHISKERS!!!
TAMA IS SO POPULAR THAT TOURISM FROM TAMA BASICALLY BROUGHT THE ENTIRE TOWN BACK FROM THE BRINK AND SAVED THE RAIL LINE!!!
I MEAN CHECK THIS OUT!!
A TAMA CAFE!! AN ENTIRE TAMA GIFTSHOP!! TAMA NOTEBOOKS TAMA BAGS TAMA EARRINGS MORE TAMA STUFF I NEVER GOT PICTURES OF!! THERE IS SO MUCH TAMA !! THIS GODDAMN CAT!!
This cat has done more in her life than I ever will with mine. Dang.
#tbt to bein’ cute #Kosovo xox sending ❤ to my girls @laylakazh @roya_kazhran #baby #easterneuropimpin
placing an online order
fulfills my sense of happiness like no other~*
left my mother a card ~
it was really weird being back at the house. the gate was open and i like freaked out and pulled it close(d?) because i remembered how mad she would get when i was open.
then i remembered that i don’t live there anymore? weird..
and she didn’t.
my life is so complete.
literally everytime i commit all of my emotions into a show, a new one comes along. just like these sleeper spies.
this little guy makes me so happy :)
אני הולך להילחם על מה שיש לי הרווחתי
i had a pretty tough time this past week. it was a real wake up call - I CAN NEVER TAKE A BREAK.
i also learned to take a breath, focus, and look to what i CAN fix.
rather than stressing like crazy (which i did internally, but triedddd to control), i just completely immersed myself into improving my grade.
and it happened so quickly! the work surely isn’t done, but it was brought up from some work that i spend crazy hours on a while back.
i am proud :) and happppy happy happy